First & last picture taken at the place that brought us to where we are now <3 It wasn’t forced. It wasn’t asked for. It was the most sweet and honest thing he’s said. Best part is in had nothing to do with it #JacksonArms #Love
So it’s been forever since I posted anything makeup-ey to YouTube. But I was convinced to start again so….. new videos coming soon!
Hello, my name is Deanna, nice to meet you :)
Usually it’s a stroll down memory lane. Going through old text messages and digging up hidden insecurities. But tonight was different. I read this line over and over again: “gazing into my eyes and that’s why I made the observation that you are SO in love with me” and he was absolutely right. Now I can analyze this; this is the moment insecurities started. When I started fearing that I loved him more. Or that I am more invested than he is. Or even something worse like feeling I could NEVER possibly make him happier than he ever has been before. But I’d rather remember this moment for what it was. A beginning of a new story, a journey, and a life together. It’s the only moment that still plays in my head like a scene in a cliche movie. It sorta went like this:
“He sat there, talking and telling me about his day. A story that I can barely remember. His words became silent but his lips continued to move as I sat there, hanging onto every breath he took. Then he looked at me, and I gazed into his eyes feeling nothing but warmth”
…and so on and so forth in some type of cheesy romantic tone.
I guess my point is, I’d rather remember this as the moment I fell IN love. And it’s not the simplicity of falling in love with him, but telling myself this IS IT. He is the one. Something I never thought I’d say or ever knew existed in my vocabulary for ANYONE.
I don’t usually blog about these things although, I do get poetic thoughts every now and then. And I’m sure no one will read this (unless I tell him to, lol) but maybe I can look back on this day years from now and think to myself “Shit, I thought I was in love writing this post. Ha, well look at us now.” We’ll you know what future self, remember hope. You used to define it as the thing that crushed your previous relationships. Because now, after all the turmoil, hope is back in full swing and there is nothing left but to grow with love and optimism for the future.
And baby, I love you. You are my absolute everything. Although it seems impossible because you make me so happy already, my love for you grows so much more every single day.
I’ve never been happier my love <3
New Year, New Hair. Wanted to try something new! 😄 (Taken with instagram)